KaiKai's Live Story

Giving it up...No..?

2010-12-09T07:50:00.000+08:00

I guess this song really says how i feel now? I cant really vividly remember since when i last blog as the hectic days goes by..
The song lyrics by SS501 -Because i am stupid (English Translation)

I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

Change or Changed?

2010-10-13T11:36:00.001+08:00

Let pictures do the telling of the story.

Distorted Perception...Yours?

2010-10-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

Simons & Levin (1998) have cleverly demonstrated that people's perception of reality is actually distorted. This can be seen by the change blindness video(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWSxSQsspiQ&feature=player_embedded).
The illusion also demonstrated that our brain takes shortcuts when processing visual information, with the result that you see the world the way you assume it to be rather than the way it actually is.

Loneliness... I fear.

2010-10-09T23:45:00.001+08:00

Returning back from Pulai Spring...from Poly Forum. Good ...bad? I dont really know. In poly forum got company of friends i guess? So much for the work load and slacking done there..lols..I was having pretty bad headache today though...my noon nap turns out to be a long sleep. I still afraid the loneliness...by myself...of how darkness envelopes me...how every of my movement gets magnify. Loneliness..i fear.

Interview ..a wise measure?

2010-10-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

A lot of things required interview. A more recent interview that i attended for was the for Poly Forum where they ask questions on the current affairs and our views and perception of Singapore current development. But the questions sum up to the effectiveness of the interview. Does it really measure what it suppose to? This remind me of Industrial Organisation Psychology, where we evaluate the effectiveness of psychological assessment used in the work place.

Interview itself is subject and there is a lot of disadvantages to it. (See more in http://www.siop.org/workplace/employment%20testing/testtypes.aspx). The main point i am trying to bring across is that interview is subjective and biases/errors often occurs consciously or sub consciously when we are being interviewed or try to interview others. In the same vein, some people will make positive self image of them self and it might not be their true self, in hoping to gain approval of others.

So the questions is, how to we make effective interview? ( See more in http://www.siop.org/workplace/employment%20testing/interviews.aspx )

PolyForum 2010. Our People (Our Family) Contacts

2010-09-28T20:21:00.011+08:00

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Wrong Path? Consider a U-turn

2010-09-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

昨天成绩放榜。。收到学校所寄来的简讯后。。终于松了一口气。。和往年一样。。一个Z 和B+。。剩余的都是A..令我最当心的还是IAPS。。今天学车的进度也不错。。今天上了两堂课。。第一堂是专门在我不太好的地方加以改进（8.15am）。。第二堂是想考驾照是的模式。。不能超过18分否则就不及格，不能竞技。。昨天驾车驶。。说好不能超过30分而我。。却得了44分。。天啊。。好在他没有让步及格。。睁一只眼闭一只眼有时还真好呢！

Sometimes you might realize perhaps you have travel the wrong path..what it takes is to take the initiative to U-turn.Sometimes we ask ourself. What for? What done cannot be undone why bother wasting our time on such meaningless act? I decided i shall tell a lie to you..so that such nonsense will be put to an end. Mich told me follow my heart not brain..as far as relationship is concern. What she says have a point. But the question boils down to, why start something that you know its destined to not have any future? Forget it Jon, so much for you deserve someone better. Let it go even though it hurts, it haunts you in the middle of the night, you need to protect yourself from being hurt. You are responsible and accountable for yourself.

What it takes to make a person more courteous?

2010-09-23T15:13:00.000+08:00

18 September

Worked at 3 places. 4 hours in the morning at Tanglin School(Its a school where they cater and talior the ciriculum to the students needs, its a secondary school and the students are either those that find difficulty coping with PSLE or O levels so they are studying there. The carnival is for them to not only learn through experience like buying and selling but it also requires them to make a portfolio out of it. Also the 'money'^ they used to buy things in the carnival are 'money' they earned by behaving themselves and excelling in their school work and all of that goes to the 'Tanglin Bank'.). 2 hours at Toa Payoh methodist church. Last 2 hours was at Fort canning park for a 21st birthday party( seems pretty grand though as she have 10 course meal, a so call bartender and ushers for drinks and also 10 course buffet and a DJ).

Even though ah Tanglin School pay is only $24 yet work 4 hours and in Toa Payoh/Fort canning is also $24 each but Tanglin school have given me a better impression and greater satisfaction too...I may understand why some kids at Tanglin school is not courteous, perhaps they lack the ability to...but what about Toa payoh and those in fort canning? They have average IQ, yet they lack of courtesy...interesting yet ironic. So are we suppose to make all humans IQ below our current average so that they will be more courteous so to speak?

Also while collecting the payment for Tanglin school they paid me $400 when it was $380. They told me the $20 is for me . For being diligent in my work. Its not about the extra money that Tanglin School offered that makes me positive about them but they appreciate things that people do.

^the currency they use are the same as Singapore just that its being printed and being laminated. So it is not exactly SGD

Its not about being calculative.

2010-09-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

17 September

Various event happen...making me thinking of them even thought it is already quite some time...few things to be rather precise. I am thinking over and over again about the outing with Buddy to Bugis...Every now and then when i think back i just feel like punching him in the face -.- There are some questions that i am still pretty puzzled even though he answered my questions....

Why did he just buy a Sony earphones without giving the price much of a though and like dont shop around since he is already close to sim lim sq...and he just give me the face "see already just buy lo" i am like...wth? I mean where got people buy something within less than 20 secs one? I go in come out of toilet he already ask the person to get him the product.
When he is sick and feeling unwell...why bother coming out? Then is like from his face i can tell that the place i bring him to that he is bored lah...then instead why dont suggest me a place....its make me seems like i am a very lousy companion ( he say things that i rarely read novel i only read when i am in NS its a waste of time to read outside NS.....uh huh ok...? So am i wasting your time by bringing you to the library and konnokuniya?) even later he try to justify that he is feeling unwell..sighs..oh well...
I can understand he buy the earphone and put in my bag cause he might drop since his 'pouch' is so small...but then...when i send him off to the mrt...around 3 minutes later when i realize that when his earphone is in my bag i ringed him and ask him come back to the top so i can pass him via the gateway...and his response was ..." i lazy to come up, you help me keep until the next time we meet up then you return me"...ok now in my mind i am like huh-ing....Why dont you wanna take it home when you buy it? I make you so bored then why do you still wanna go out with me the next time? Do you actually trust me to keep that earphones for it? What if i lost or accidentally damage it? Why coming up of the MRT also so difficult o.o...Usually when people buy new things aren't they always excited to like at least try it?

I went home head giddy...in the mrt pondering on those questions

Defining Success

2010-09-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

What is success to you? What are your goals? Where are you heading to? What do you wanna be? Does being rich means success in life? Does fulfilling your goals means you are successful? Sometimes somethings are best to remain undefined. Ambiguous definition sometimes makes life easier.

Stop being childish will you?

2010-09-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

Just a bit sick and tired of how things is going..not really about the pace..but how people running away from responsibility..seriously one example will be my dad...who wants to terminate his handphone contract and he ask me go talk to that idiot who i am reluctant to talk to..finding a good excuse say i will see him...zzz seeing and talking to him is 2 different things..I detest such people to the extend that i dont even wanna talk to him, wonder why such creature exist in the first place. And my dad seriously afraid how things will be awkard always wanna be the Saint.. Crap. Dont screw with me man. Damn it pissed. Today another conflict. geez...about mum not picking up her phone then dad got irritated dont drive her home...wtf man this kind of things...cant you all just talk it out? How old already? Why still so childish. I am very frustrated...
According to Frustration Aggression Theory (Brokowitz) revision. Anger occurs when the person who irritates you have another route of options and they can choose not to. Clearly, such people either is being egocentric unable to feel how frustrated i am, or they intentional wants me to feel pissed. -.-

What does death means to you?

2010-08-31T13:27:00.001+08:00

Went to library in the morning to study with Sam today. Geez i feel so not productive (question: was i ever?) Hahah!! Then around 1 plus Mich sms me tell me the Chinese Physician died. I was like o.o?! At first i tot she is trying to give me as a metaphor. Then in the end i see eh..3 missed call.. a bit abnormal ah? So i decided to give her a ring but well its engaged, she called back, she told me about more specific details....

TThis reminds me of Kublers Ross Stages of Dying and Erikson Psychosocial Development Theory (Specifically at Integrity vs. Despair).

Kublers Ross Stages of Dying states that not everyone will experience all the following stages, neither do they in the same order or same speed.

Denial: Shock and disbelief that their life just going to end like that.
Anger: Resentful and hostility projected. Why among so many people is them? Why not others?
Bargaining: Trying to seek other ways out around death such as promising to be a good mother if she is 'spared'
Depression: Finally they can no longer escape from the fact that they are dying they become bitter and sour. With discussion, people are able to reach 'Acceptance' stage
Acceptance: They come to accept death with pace and dettachment.

This bring us to Erikson

Since he have in later adulthood...Presume he is in the stage of Integrity vs. Despair. He should have already pass Generativity vs Stagnation. In the stage of Integrity vs. Despair, we look at if the person is regretful in life, have he lead a meaningful life, is there unfinished fulfillment; coming to terms with one's life. They are usually overwhelm with bitterness and would blame others for it (similar to Anger) in Kubler Ross stages of theory if they are in the Despair stage.

Recently there is a video,pictures being post on youtube about if you think your life stress then see this, if you think your life sucks then see this....let me share with you some video.

Armless Pianist in China's Got Talent 2010-08-08

Eyewitness: Flood devastation in Pakistan

Physics Nightmare...

2010-08-29T01:39:00.001+08:00

Ain't my secondary school years over...? Thanks to my sister i experinced the nightmare of physics again...Gravity, friction forces...Her questions: Why objects at steeper slopes have faster speed as comapared to less step slope? My initial response huh wth..come to think of it..oh ya why ah..some more this suppose to be a secondary school standard what! Why the hell primary school cover this kind of question. More like physics can...not basic science.
So i begin to think....
Steeper less contact with the ramp less friction then travel faster...then i posted on facebook...and hmm true gravity plays a part too...so in the end i am thinking..ok gravity so free fall 9.81ms^2 uh huh? Den? So i so more research yea...and still no answer..but the last answer i give her as pertaining to center of gravity: "When the slope is steeper, you are more in line with the center of gravity, so it overcomes friction and you move faster as compared to a object at a less steep slope"

事事难预料

2010-08-27T09:11:00.000+08:00

天啊怎么今天怎么事事都不顺心呢？真是气死人了！！而且一部分也是我活该。。性情会不好是因为昨天凌晨三点才睡。。所以早上起身时有一点昏昏欲睡的状态。。大考即将来到。。为什么我还在这样呢？！子凯你到底是怎么了呢？到底有没有自我反省啊。。。我对自己说今天一定要在十二点前睡。。我一定要做到！

Family Dissonance

2010-08-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

Everyone is experiencing cognitive dissonance in some way at least in my family…

My sister and I: watching Anime when she is Supposed to study for her exam (PSLE/Prelim) whereas me (Social Psych and Develop Psych)…

3 options of resolve cognitive dissonance: Change belief/ Change action/ Change belief of action…

I guess my I failed at changing action at least find it kinda hard…I end up changing my belief of action…I watch anime instead of studying is because there is still time and it’s for relaxation I can’t be so tense up eh? Hur hur…. poor rationalization but I manage to switch of my internal alarm that is resonating internally…

My dad: buying things without thinking and me constantly nagging bringing to his awareness his action have brought me a lot of disturbances as I have to dealt with the aftermath whenever the things he buy have problem…-.-

I guess am the one who set his internal alarm off…apparently he resolve his conflict through..he changed his belief: Buy the product so the whole family can enjoy even if the period is that short…..=.= WTHH I mean like come on seriously…geez…

I think my mum is equally as bad….buying 4D even knowing the odds of winning is very low…and yet she does not experiences any cognitive dissonance…I mean seriously…

Persuasding her apparenting is useless…Lets see 4 elements are involving in persuasion./ The communicator, the content of the message, the receiver , the channel…

Communicator: which is me…in terms of credibility I am quite credible waddd!! I speaks fast…and research show that if someone speaks fast…they tend to be perceive as trustworthy, though there isn’t any one who introduced me as an expert laa..

Content: Even though she is just passive receiving my information but then research also shows that even though its passive reception I just hope she she is not desensitized to what I said…-.- Geez. More over the media definitely is at fault for potraying in drama that windfall does happen as long they are lucky. Oh God.!

Geez. I shall stop here….

Today’s Takeaways

If someone attitude and belief is strong it takes more than just mere words to dissuade them from what they believe.

Someone's there

2010-08-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

Watching anime~~ Seeing how cute the characters are...how the male lead always able to rescue the female lead also makes me envy...i also wish to be so talented like the male lead ....being like a super heroes who pop out when the female lead needs me...back to reality..no one can do that...whats more is me..haha...sometimes i guess this fantasy will just have to remain at fantasy afterall..still watching such anime makes me feel happy...even though the character i am not really...i am glad people who write the story plot actually also have such intent in mind while writing...ever since young we were told happily ever after...but well in reality..who can assure you that? Nothing is forever...

Take a break~

2010-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Its been pretty long since i last took a break...i nearly forget the feeling of a break...today morning went for driving...the instructor seriously very impatient but very encouraging...so today we covered a bit of u-turn also the reversing...somehow like parking like that...I slacked all the way today by watching "Kaichou Wa Maid-sama" and "Nuraihyon No Mago ". I promised myself no work today...just rest hell lot. No nothing. Just do hat i like...i even bought myself cheese tarts and drank Jolly Shandy....Life is good slacking...i also slept in the afternoon for 3 hours...how i wish i can spend all my time doing all this...slacking my life away sometimes is a form of enjoyment after rushing assignment like crazy...in time to come those days will come already....Tml...i shall start studying..

The insecure me

2010-08-16T17:22:00.000+08:00

I finally got over IAPS...rush hour to 5am in the morning and send...early in the morning i received a email from Wah Pheow around 10.am plus stating that i have yet to submit my IAPS i was totally in shocks...my eyes nearly fall off...I went check my mail and indeed it bounced. Luckily i have evidence and that saved me from the heavy penalty...Just when i though i am able to rest...i just got to realize... There isn't much time left before the final exam...i do not have much time to rest...I feel heavy...i feel insecure...i am unsure how my IAPS will turn out...i really hope and pray hard for an A...for so much effort being put in...

I dont wanna give up

2010-08-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

一不一脚印。我不能输我不会放弃。Will be back to post about sub com camp after i finish my IAPS literature review.

No one owes you a living.

2010-08-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

Was working at the Carnival at Bishan today... Faced a bunch of rude/unruly/kind/uneducated/nice people....I dont understand why some people are just the way they are. Oh well i am working...i am not only selling my service but smile too...only too pushy people will get it from me seriously...Learning so much about psychology also a bit useless to make feel not angry. Faced a bitch a bastard today. Both of late adult hood if ghost is present i hope and pray hard they got haunted!

Takeways

Be thankful for things you receive, things may be free but do not take a for granted.
Always be courteous in taking things, saying a thank you even though might seems to be nothing but it makes a big difference and its says a lot of you.
Parents play a important role in inculcating the correct moral values and courtesy in their children.

Cross Cultural Photos

2010-08-06T23:35:00.001+08:00

Dear Guys, for a higher resolution of the pictures. Please click on the pictures that you want. And right click on the pop-up window which will have the higher resolution photos. =D

Going slow

2010-08-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

There are two presentations today. Development Psych Group Project & IAPS.
Development Psych Group project well done out of 5 starts i will rate 4 star as satisfaction.
For IAPS. Totally cui. When i am only my slide 3 i already utter the wrong things. I can actually tell by Wah Pheow expression which is "OMG OMG JONATHAN NOOOO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING" but...i guess did to insufficient rehearsal and also sleep...i did not manage to remember correct those procedures used in Cononelly 2007 experiment.. and i said a lot of wrong things which caused me having questions raised at 3rd slides and all the way...This is the first presentation was not only Wah Pheow voiced his disappointment in me but myself..Be it i am a year 2 or year 3 , got experience no experience.. some of the things i should not get it wrong...

My Takeaways

Slowing down my speed of presentation
Think before i make any response instead of screaming the first answer that comes to my head which most of the times is not useful in helping me to answer correctly
Rehearse to people who do not have any knowledge on the subjects, before presenting in the presentation
If i were to cite study in my experiment I must make sure i am already 100% able to explain the article's procedures, methods, results and discussion!
A pat on the shoulder can gives a lot of warm to the one who upset, this is actually a very good form of emotional support

Learning never stops

2010-08-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

IAPS slides are finally done after much hard work and advise for Wah Pheow. Started doing at midnight 3.45am all the way to 8pm plus. After much scolding, criticizing, sarcasm. I pull it through. Thanks to Michelle's hard work of compiling the slides and also the report, we (Joanna, Weixin and i) able to work on our rest of our work be it IAPS or ECS test. I just realize that i am not as professional in delivering powerpoint presentation as i though i am. I realize that i am not as professional in making powerpoint presentation as i though i am. But well i learnt, even though Wah pheow keep scream at me the way i speak, how not professional I am , i learnt, I guess that is what strucks me most when i though what i always do well in is not necessary the true. Time to do some self evaluation of myself. In some way Wah Pheow said is through because of IAPS i troubled quite a lot of people in the process not only him, but also Ms Eliz Tan, yea and Ms Pearl Chong also for helping me to change asking the management and stuffs...getting it aint easy i guess like what Mr Elijah last lecture's takeaway was : "Good things that worth never comes easy".

My Daily Takeaways: Be humble. One will never learn if he/she thinks they are the best. The fact that when you think you are the best. Consider this, there is actually someone out there, something out there that you don't even know about.

Stressed Am I?

2010-08-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

No doubt. I am damn friggin stressed. Both due on Friday! Gosh. Still got tml got counseling test...I am really damn pek chey larh. I really don't know how to say and convey my feelings...I am just like irritated ttm already. Thanks Mr Terence for telling me:"If you think you are cant do it, you cant do it. What most important is what you tell your mind" ALRIGHT! I shall call in some positive attitude into my life i put at my Facebook status about even though i have IAPS i will surely produce my development group project input by Wednesday even though i have a lot of things on and due. I really really wish i can do my things finish. Even though when Friday come..it doesn't mean holiday to me at all, i still have IAPS literature review. I guess after only finish my development i shall start on my counselling...Damn it got scam go sch for nth. No extra credit in lecture for cross cultural waste of my time seriously.

Assignment:

Counselling Psych [TUESDAY!]
Development Psych [WEDNESDAY!]
Development Psych Group Project + Presentation [FRIDAY!]
IAPS + Presentation [FRIDAY!]

Another Counselling Test

2010-08-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there is just this burning impulse in you in smacking or crushing people who pretends to be weak and helpless...you just cant help it...you know they are capable to alleviating their own stress and problems yet they still tried to be heroic thinking that the world revolves around them and they are forced to sacrifice themselves in the decision they make...humans...what are you thinking..
I shouldn't think too much and i guess its my wishful thinking in reading into your intents..Sorry....about that.I though you liked me...once again...i am dumb to get misled again...however..i am grateful you ain't as heartless as how that *** landed me up with.. Still...thanks..i finally knew i am nothing to more than just a friend to you. Its need true Myers (2010) stated that guys are likely to misread the signals send to them. I think too much ;x

So what?

2010-07-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

So what if you studied psychology? So what if you know the mechanism behind emotions? Can you stop someone from feeling sad? Can you stop someone from being angry? What practical implications are there? Having studying psychology i still finds it hard to manage my emotions mainly my anger. This is just so human for you.

Feb 08: Angel Singings.

2010-02-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

Feb 08
Been pretty long since i last blog. If i werent wrong the post was about you. Maybe i was wrong...Well i guess it doesnt matter really much now..I regret the day you shown your concern on my facebook wall..when i thought i just got over you..simply you walk into my life you come to mess things up again. What else do you want. You screwed my life bad enough. When eye candies in everyday life become an excuse as a facade for me to hide you deep enough so that your presence will not be heard. Stop shunning me..stop avoiding me and telling you aint. You are grauating pretty soon enough..why cant you just leave peacefully.. i dont need your care i dont need your concern ...i dont nid your misdirection to make me assume i am in love with you. Though i plan to meet you at 3 or 4 plus today i skip the idea and when straight home after school..enought of nonsenses ...i have like u since the academic year unknowingly eh...and now that you know so much of me. Thanks. I know nuts about you. Please stay as secretively as you may be. Please dont ever surface again. I will just for you change my route of going home so i wont pass your 'territory' and i wont see you. So will i not go for the Dinner and Dance. Your presence have already deeply affected me even though i try to pretend everything is fine. I know it perfectly every min now and den...if i am with you..i will not able to control myself but looking like an idoit staring on the phone for the message. Unrequited care. Unrequited love.Please... i hope this is the last time i am really so dying for you. Till i get over you i will shut my hell dam door..i will never hurt someone so badly like how you hurt me...

"No one ever hurt me like you did.
No one ever makes me so in love with you like you did..
Everything of you makes me so crazy about..
Its time to leave......"

27th dec

2009-12-31T11:54:00.000+08:00

27th dec
Oh....busy busy. Esp past few days before christmas. I was working on cruise on 23th dec.... Well pretty bad ...its super health hazard job....exposing your self to super dam loud music....ppl smoking. Immediate complications i can think of is linked to physio psy...deafness ...next is lung cancer and how the neruo transmitter got altered...But well not everything was so bad at least i manage to know 2 nice pal ; my bunk mates. William and Ming =D ...But well even though understand such hazardous circumstances i still give my best to "entertain them" as i believe...professionalism i am paid to do it...it may appear to be peanuts in how detrimental it is to eur health but well....

15 Dec

2009-12-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

15 Dec

Its been pretty long since i last blog..partially due to limitation of time...rushing for term test..so many things happen since i last blog..that i didnt even know where to begin..Life..indeed fasinating.. Finally this is my so call holiday in poly but damn it seriously so many projects..yesterday went to the student leadership program things...x.x I need to sleep..down with flu..i guess its the " after examination effect"

To someone:
I decide to turn your invitation down to your home to have sex with you. In a way is to fulfil my promise to my bro. In a way is to not ruin your life. More over c'mon you are attached.! =D

5 Dec

2009-12-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

5 Dec
Its been pretty long since i last blog. Finally decide to say all my thanks before exam start on monday..even though i feeel soooooo insecure...

Top 9 Greetings

Larry
Kelvin kwok aka kangaroo
Smelly
Daryl
Mak ee Judy
Benjamin Yap
Fred
Macolm
Alicia

Every year this list jus shock me. This year my bros, my main com and classmate all forget my birthday except weixin and cherie..well my main com only Azeemah and hazimah and Aaron. Even Audrey and Tricia didnt greet me . Well is ok...anyway michelle try to be the last person in the end truimph by Peter whose greeted me on 11.59 before Dec 3...Thanks.Well i dont need present actually ...to me present is just bonus..what counts is the thoughts.! Thanks for though who have greeted me =d
Thanks my clique(kelvin and peter) who celebrate for me at pizza hut on 29/11 with Nigel mun han and elieen and buying me a oishi chocolate cake and a blue elephant hand warmer. Arigato.

20 Nov

2009-11-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

20 Nov

We went to celebrate kelvin's birthday in advance at 天天火锅..So its like yup today after mad rush of interview mad rush of I/O psy which i finally finish..i went to meet up with them in bugis..Seriously ..i am suffering from sleep depreivation..on wednesday i sleep for only 2 hours because i am rushing Lit Review..den on thursday night i from 10pm sleep until 3am den from 3am all the way to 5pm rushing I/O psy. x.x Poly Life..not for human..how to sleep 9.2 hrs..crazy....Anyway yup today people who turn up for the celebration is the main host: Kangaroo..den got hamster,fish,cow,doggie,cockroach and also mun han and elieen. Den in the end cockroach went to call patrick who was jus coincidentally in nearby..come ..den after we blow the cake take pictures and walk all the way to Suntec. This is where the main event come..we were walkin in the alley where the trees shrouded and i as usual was walking faster than them..peter was walking beside me than i was like talking to them..so was i singing..." 我找不到，我看不到。。”Den i turn to my right.. "Eh peter.." Den i realise wth shit...not peter!!! Is a stranger..den i look back..the whole group of them is like approx 15m away from me laughing..as they see me squatted down and scream" OMG SOO EMBRASSING So i decided to fool them..in the end they sorta say is peter come up with the idea..so after we reach suntec..ta da! After visiting the toilet when about all coming out..i walk out in their sight..so nigel and guoqiang were like chasing me..~~~den i walk walk walk in the end got pull back by dem in the end i walk off again den went down to lvl one as peter tag along and keep say anytihng tell him larh don angry wad happen. LOL den i sit there after not long later i sms everyone. " Eh come down. I playing a prank on peter only" den kelvin show peter the sms den peter was like..."wth!!!"
LOL!!!! So funny.!

4 Nov

2009-11-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

4 Nov

Maybe it was my itchy hands that slipped of the hind of eur head..but i never expect such a response..disappointed and shocked..leaving me shivering..i am glad i am with my secondary school friends so at least i didnt feel so embarass..Let this be the last time..i initate and delibrately find all the reasons i have to find you..

2 Nov

2009-11-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

2Nov

Come to think of yesterday so happy...my eye candy..finally accept my facebook request..come to think of it..am i a flirt?..? Is it crush or just purely eye candy? Why do i get the feelings one get when i see that person...Why do my stomach cant stomach churncing..and my heart start beating faster..?What about senpai ?aishiteru kohai to senpai desu...
Senpai wa...cool...hot..smoker[demerit]..cute..
Kohai wa..good body figure..charismatic desu..
I treat to forget senpai but it only hurts me more..the feeling lingers..close to kill me..Where is senpai..?Why didnt senpai text me?Why didnt Senpai sms me...?nan deska..?Senpai already like someone else? To senpai i am only diidii? Cant i be someone else..? Even though i really hate smoker..i dont know why i can tolerate Senpai..

16 Oct

2009-10-16T23:37:00.020+08:00

16 Oct

Went to school early in the morning had breakfast and tea at design school...after that went to attend Emotional Intelligence Workshop. which turn out to be a crap. Totally Crap.! During break time..SWEAT FINALLY! Den jus nice when i tot go HSS Lab print thing den i saw Francis..den i tell him how crap the EQ shit is...den he encourage me to retort him and question him...den he say if cannot den he give me textbook den throw at his face.After break i question him on self actualisation lo..hmphs~3 questions..that jerk anyhow ans in the end tio shoot fail to answer den divert..seriously..those ppl come seminar one hor..or whatever talk always fail to answer question and beat around the bush..same goes for the ken benchard...well but the stupid waste my time totally really...9am to 5pm..waste time!!!Den after that i sms francis..den Khy sms me "Hey stop complaining boy! Do some research on Maslow and take to him! You're smart abc know enough to dispute and show him the path." "Show him in your textbook about Maslow and look up emotional develtopment.Maslow contended to be self actualised on will have to surpassed corporeal existence."Sweat..finalyl finish i screwed his feedback form up. So irritated with him luhz. After the stupid crap i went find Francis he say not going World Health Mental Day cause Jermias they all not going..dots..so in the end he say den we go eat lo den go his old house fixed window den after that he send me home..

Today feeling slight werid as usual he didnt reply my sms...nvms i know i am not of importance anyway..try to forget him bahs..its useless to jus harpping on it.He won and never understand..you are just a toy..

Oct 13

2009-10-14T02:34:00.000+08:00

OCt 13
Never ask for too much..
Today in the afternoon went to school meet up with Aaron ,Izati and Farah and JAnell den after that 3pm we went to sports hall..as we were trying to figure out..huh netball court where sia..in the end saw Jeremy Sports Club President..so he tell me oh cause raining so change venue to sports complex. So yup..quite fierce fight between Engine and Applied Science..and Applied Science and TPSU..wah is seriously play until like wan fight like that ...after that told Aaron go at 6 plus pm so we decided to continously remind those ppl about their program in hoping it would be more successful..well after that went to cheer aaron eat instant noodles after that we went for council meeting yelp yelp yelp . Noncenses.. lalal end ler..after that i text ben kor kor ask if he wan to meet me not..den he say gg back club room den i tell hm lo...i won force him to come find me..keep tell me he shy..seriosuly act decent sia..den after that i tell him lo..furthest i can go is IT block lvl 1..up to u if he wan find me..den he say he and desmond go smoke first ask me go find him..-.- After that ben korkor come sorta accompany me larh..be brought desmon along den i was like o.o ..ohh hi..den after that desmon shun go back club room...so i was like trying to talk to him..den he keep sms -.-..so i ask him eh..let me lean on eu lei my back very suan den he tell me eh can 1mins 10 dollar..den i say walao.20 dollar ..30dollar..WAHS In the end he say 2nd time i bu shuang laios..i ji tao take my hp go lean on him..den he say i heavy..say me pig..tsk tsk tsk..den after that i try to jolt him by poking him sia la he tell me don play arbo he leave den in the end he jolt me back =X Den after that 9.40 arh he left..lols..he very cheapskate one lei still ask me drive him home den he accompany me..tsk tsk tsk..Came home ler..come msn talk..din bid go bye after he go...

12 Oct

2009-10-12T22:32:00.001+08:00

12 Oct

For the tears i shed i hope you see. Even if you dont I just hope you feel. I want nothing of extravangence but just wish to be with you. Held by you ,hug by me, be by your side.With as much disappointment i have,i just got to swallow and pretend everything is fine. At least for now i how u accede the friend request bit by bit i would be able to get closer to you. I know we wont be together but at least knowing you..allow to to feel at ease a little..i know there is lesser distance between you and me.
My wish: Erase my memories and experinces i have with relationship. Let me learn once again what is it like to learn to love again..to be love..

Oct 4

2009-10-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

Oct 4

Today meet kelvin and peter for dinner.brought nana along....After nana tuition we went to library until 6 plus ... Finally manage to lvl 102. With 3 hrs plus of spam at night thanks to Qian help..Bought the SW Map at 1.45m. 6 more levels to skele after that go help mule hs Qian to lvl 190.
What am i thinking..maybe..

31 Sep

2009-10-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

31 Sep

Why i cant take my eyes of you?
Why am i afraid to look into you when you are of close distances to me?
Why do i try to be non-chalent when my gut is churcing every minutes i know you are off nearby ?

Today morning 9.20am woke up..reset the alarm inital timing from 9.30 to 9.35am..as for later part of the sleep i was snoozing for the every 5 min call..until 10.10am i surrender..Yesterday have a very werid dream..i dream of a laughing buddha chasing me in my dream..a small statute..the dream took place in a temple with monks inside..inside there is a water founation..where the statue flow to my direction no matter where i run..each time i see the statue i scream and run..den later for some reason i stop screaming..the statute stop and laid on my hands. And den a voice echo" Wo hui zai ou zhou deng ni" Direct transaltion would be "I will be waiting for you in Europe" den i dream my mum ask me Europe not predominatly all christians meh? No larhs..i also dnno..den i dream i went to draw lots..i ask about relationship,studies,work..the lot say its a very slow progress..and i woke up.TA DA!

Today meet kelvin at amk hub for lunch..in my heart i was thinking maybe if i earlier go to school and give work sheets..my eye candy finish exam already i maybe able to catch a sight of..but well too bad i leave home too late ..if i were meeting kel i will be consider early by few mins..if i were to go back mayflower ..darn i will be late when meeting kel..and cant meet him late as he got attachment laters..There goes my eye candy..sighs..but..suddnely..its seems under the arrangment of fate..when me and kel is strolling in the amk hub food court..i saw a back view of someone who looks dam familar..den i walk front and took a peek. HOLY! MY CANDY! ARRGH MY CANDY and my candy's friends...So i got a perfect view by asking kel to sit in a place of convinent for me to sorta stalk my candy =p I like the smile of my candy so bright sweet and alluring..so i was eating eating seein seeing ....everythigns was so perfect until a idoit see directly in my view totally block my CANDY out! HOLY ! Cursed! IDOIT! UNCLE MOVE IT ! MOVE IT!!!! So after that..after finishin dining my eye candy is still playin psp..so i sorta talk to kel..in the mean time distracted looking and looking ..den when they prepared to sorta leave..den i ask kel..eh lets go lets go..so i sorta walk behind my candy..den go down esclator..omg..! My canddy was behind me cause i think i sorta walk to fast..i don dare to turn to look at him..part of me was so tempted to look at my candy...part of me was overhelm by shyness..DANG! OFF My eye candy..SADDED~

29 Sep [The Irresponsbile me]

2009-09-29T14:22:00.000+08:00

29 Sep [The irresponsible me]
I purposely delibrately skip today's main com meeting which is at Changi Chalet.Well even though my presidents are paying my share NOTE:I AM NOT GOING.! I have enough actually..well since i decided to sealed my blog and limit to only some readers. I put it plainly I am a main com. You are a sub com. You totally got no rights to take a chalet without even consulting the main com. So will i even pay for it? NO! Cause its you act smart.Know your place . Shut your trap. Enough is enough.I learn not to care so much for main com stuffs..no point getting upset and angry over it while the other main com are not even committed. I am not a chalet person anyway. If someone got chalet and ask me there. There person better be someone i comfortable with. I dont go chalet with any tom dick or harry -.-

28 Sep

2009-09-28T14:24:00.003+08:00

28 Sep
Today spend serveral hours in maple and tried 1 hr of spam service which cost me 7m and gain me 150% of exp..pretty slow i would say as i have on 2x 45mins buff. Not only so also got 50% free spam additional at ulu 2 from the Scar server who ps me. The scar server say as compensation well good =D since he let me loot also.Currently lvl 93. Wees.!
Last day at mfss..Ms Wang cut part of the moon cake feed me eat one of the pieces there muhahahs.!Thanks Ms Daisy Lim for the chocolates =DD

27 Sep

2009-09-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

27 Sep
Finally helmed..Stupid scar server say wan bring me 10.30pm go in ..in the end i rush home...just come to realise eee...bluff me...den hors lucky i smart enough keep go around ask den got one party asking for sponsor...den i follow in...finally 2 hrs later i go my helm as dc de dc those who kill de got kill even after revive.In the end only left the bishop and Crazy21 fighting..very glad they fight till the very end for me..they could have call off and compensate me and say wait for another batch but well thank god i got my helm.

25 Sep

2009-09-25T14:34:00.001+08:00

25 Sep

Life is seriously full of junks at time...getting so irritating that you feel like earsing people off..so you feel much better. Damn the lollipop war...damn the interview waste of my time..damn the scar service...damn the students who wasted my efforts to make hints so they can score. Feel so fked up..dead beat.

Sep 14

2009-09-15T07:59:00.000+08:00

Sep 14

Back to Secondary school in a different position today..in a teacher's perspective..see and hear things too are different..quite suprised i would say..the another side of them..perhaps my mental set was already fixed quite long ago before they ever taught me...or of which i seen or heard off..Well. Office Politics. After I finish working i went to TP to give the photographs to Ms Linda and Ms Komala.lols.

12 Sep

2009-09-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

12 Sep

Doing some soul searching and reflections..

About Maple

7 Sep 8 Sep

2009-09-09T01:26:00.005+08:00

8 Sep

Woke up...After that play maple..nothing much today..Finish watching Zhong ji san guo episode 28..wah damn sad larh..oh gosh ..pity ah xiang and xiu so sad sia their romance :(

7 Sep

morning woke up 7plus to jog one around around neighbourhood. Today me nigel and peter meet at 10am. BUT NIGEL HOR HOR COME LATE! After that we went to seng kang gym..not long later it was wine the 15 glass of wine effects starts to kicks in..my stomach..ARGH! Its chuncing..twsiting..feel totally like vomitting.But i guess afterall sorta got better den went mac to grab hot tea. Spam alot of coffee mate in it LOL.After that we went to take mrt to harbour front from seng kang . After that we were checkin de sign board for how to go HP service centre. During de service of lappy den peter they all were takin their free milo and latte.Lol. Thus after we decide to seoul garden =p it cost about $22.x kinda ex sia. But well nigel say he hungry den i also paiseh ask him go else where. I today also first time eat beef and a lot lol! Not bad lei quite nice will eat again when i am out

Sep 6

2009-09-07T08:25:00.003+08:00

Sep 6

Today is mama birthday at night we went to Ah Yat Abalone Restraunt to dine...ohhhh soooo nice got abalone...bird nest egg tart...Drank 15 glass of wine consisting of letssee Red Wine,White Wine,Ice wine woooooooo

Think a lot..again and again..

Time and again i long for your message..i knew you wont call..but a mssg online or sms is enough..you never understand..i start to be allergy with anything associate with you..whenever either your name is being brought up or associated some how i feel rather lost..a bit familar yet unfamilar ..Why...Get lost..would be the last 2 words i have for you even if i were to betray my heart myself..my soul..

4Sep

2009-09-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

4 Sep

在命运的巧妙安排下我认识了你，却无法和你在一起...真是让我不知该怎么好。。=（

Went to Innova to did 4.5 hrs of relief..for class 1J..The DJ did not read my dedication for Hui..I give up..

百年树人，诲人不倦

Aug 31

2009-08-31T23:34:00.004+08:00

Aug 31

Today went back to secondary school hees so fun =DD Today i give presents to Ms Sim,Mrs Natha,Ms Wang,Mr Ng Teachers Day Present =) and show appreciation to Mrs Ess,Ms Daisy Lim and also Mr George..even though Mr George is only a librain but he does teach me invaluable lessons and he is quite nice to me so yup. For some one to be qualified as a teacher not neccessary one have to be teaching you academically it could be someone who is of equal or even younger than you,primitively anyone could be a teacher to the other.Sitting in the hall with my fellow friends watching performaces in the air condition hall really sorta make me reminsce those days we were in the hall having morning assembly and where i am so fking and dying to get out of it cause never fail to have cramps =s sitting with irritating people whom u wish they just vanish at least for that day and you will start to count their blessings. Mr Ng also very nice larh after i give him the present he say got reception ask me to take and eat den i say don wan larhs paiseh lei. Den he say go get for me..wah he serious lei go get for me worhs! Den still say got sometime can accompany and talk =DD After that i went out to meet Fred and Kel..stupid hamster stupid kangaroo fly my plane tell me 7.30am outside school gate den in the end 7.30 stupid kangaroo is at Hamster house..FAINT! -.- This year find teacher also very easy sia..DAMN EASY! I about to pick up the fone and call den MDM yati walk out..i about find Ms sim when talkin to ms oh..Ms sim walk out. SWEE OH! Den after that just nice also promise Ms Sim that will go back to take her sec 3 4 5 classes for F&N since she will be away for 2 weeks,she was glad larhs i was able to help..den after that we went office to do some basic procedures.~ So yup yay i will be back 14 Sep to 28Sep. Hees ^^After that rush back to TP for main com meeting..den before that i called sammy..den i jus realise..SAMMY IS AMKSS de!! So i went to eat at hub lers than meet him -.- Make me wait tsk tsk tsk causing talking to teacher LOL!! Den i was like..AMk interchange impossible no bus to Tampinese one.. -.- So i went see the signs..i ask terene and fone give doggie both tell me bo -.- but the sign there put got WORH!!! So we took the bus alight at the bedok reservior there and walk in..The meeting was smoother than i though it would be..supringsly and we sorta decided on some things hope tml one will be ok also..Its just not long later that i lose hope and say bb to the com matters..if its not getting any better..

26,27 Aug

2009-08-30T16:16:00.002+08:00

27 August

Stupid larh today statistic exam...and ok lo..hai hao except the hypothesis conclusion right wrong dam du lan after that i broke my umbrella out of anger -.- So bo bian cheng all the way home after that went home den at night meet hamster,fish,kangaroo at WRL den we go for dinner..officially playing back maple..get weapon ler arbo is wan the ssb den in the buy i see (hino fan TMA 105 more reasonable so kel brought for me.

26 Aug

Mugging for stats...went back to TP to help with the promotions of Audrey's event...early morning Francis already sooooooooooooooooo noisy..and the Audrey very bo liaos ask me go ask one of the lectuerer is what name ...den i tell him is Sandrick she dont believe den force me go ask say what treat me tea DOTS!Lame lo she get wad she wan -- After that Francis treat us eat breakfast den start working..-.- They really make me malu say wan ask Porsche to speak in the end

25 Aug

2009-08-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

25 Aug

My first day teaching in Innova Primary ...so excited wonder how would the experince be. Bought breakfast and rush eating den meet mrs Ang settle the admin matters including telling me what class i would be teaching..so down the list lets see...Social studies,Music,English,Maths..WAHH! Social Studies and Music is p2 de. Than after going to 1A to take attendance at 8am i went staff room wait wait wait den shop around in Maple FM for tma earing..den also see for things luh so yup 9.30 my first class..go to the class no ppl..waiting for 10mins know there is smth wrong went back to office to double check if p2 have class today bo cause i kinda overheard they say some classes e-learning..den zzz no class lo so waiting until 10.30..10.30am i take 1A class until 1pm..I go down the stairs only they saw me and there they go..seriously..they start calling TEACHER TEACHER ..."blaa blaa blaa playing with centipede..he throw inside the locker..TEACHER TEACHER" Den i say okokokok bring me to there.. -.- den i say ok let me put my things inisde first then i go settle den i go tell them in a firm manner. " Those who have touch or played with the centipede all go wash your hands! The rest go in the class and wait for me!"

In the class...

"Teacher Teacher just now when you go out blaa blaa blaa is talking very loudly."

"Mr lim Mr Lim i help u earse the white board"

"Mr kai Mr kai she go use paper hit my kukubird"
"Mr kai I not feeling well headache"

"Mr lim i dunno what to write"

"Mr Kai i dunno how to spell this and that"

They are just like maybe autoclicker or dunno auto typer spamming my head.Round and round..Headed home ...after 2pm settling those kids..Tired..Sore throat..3 hrs talking speaking loudly no water =( Nevertheless very touched as one of the student give me so call teachers day present (a cake) dunno how he got it luh obviously i didnt accept..and the one person gave me "Certificate of Achievement"..and they sing national anthemn so proudly..just come to think of it..a bit guilty eh for not singing so loud and confidently as them.

23,24 August

2009-08-25T08:24:00.003+08:00

24 Aug

Yesterday start playing mapling and end up like persisting on things like selling things buying things..So tired larhs den need to try NANA notes finally thank god last night i did finish..Sold my WWG WA 11 for 93m dunno if i make a profit out of it a not lah though i remember buying it at 65m arh or 87m..aiya doesnt matter also sell lers..determine to play cleric. The bloody kangaroo and my sis arh. Both of them like previous life owe they all like that . For that kuku kangaroo i need type those O level materials for Oral for him..-.- that day consolidated the Bio URL for him and also those videos...For my sis arh -.- i need make 8 chapter de notes for her..Faint.Their textbook honestly horrible -.- I really speechless went i attempt to make notes from there information really too little for me to make already larhs. But well need to use a bit of my sec sch knowledege to pop in a little bit larh..just in case ..although yea indeed critical thinking is what they emhpasised.. however..not to this extend lo..and content really crappy so many pictures...so little words. 80% of the whole thin book is pictures 20% is words.Go secondary school sure die. I tml also a bit half dead so late den sleep sia . OH GOD! TML going to Innova Primary School to teach so excited i even made the "Lucky Dip" box for them as incentive to be good boy and girl.I guess P1 p2 students?

23 August

Let see today got pray offering to 7th month den ealier on in the morning also went to CCK cementry to pray ah gong and ah zoh..i think as usual one lo if morning have event sure got lots and lots of ruckus one -.- OH GOD! DAMNNN NOISY! Dad will start give the black face mum will bu shuang -.- In the end well.. $%^W$%&%&W#& expected anyway. Hees today for dinner is deep fried chicken wing and also 1/4 of whole chicken plus fish soup T_T DAMN FULL SIA.

22 August

2009-08-23T00:26:00.007+08:00

22 Aug
Busy making notes for sis science exam -.- Well today did nothing much =DD Only crap online den after that go face book barn buddy..Than me mum tell me my aunt tell her got one TP - Law and management commit sucide. Den i go ask my friends around. So i piece all info together.We can learn from this incident that we shall live life to the fullest!!! Let us all clear all the obstacles with courage =D . Hope ****** pass on well even though i do not really know her.

20 August

2009-08-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

20 August
What is the purpose of going school today? Charge my lappy,phone,Ds Lite,handphones? LOL nahs no larhs cause got statistic question dont know also..den just nice go there can charge things..in the morning 6am wake up.First thing i did is the infiltrate barn buddy farms and start stealing Fish's farm goods muhahah.!After that went to school than as usual buy breakfast luhz..Promised to help Audrey's group to be their event EMCEE. T_T After that than was chatting with Kelvin trying to reinforce his concepts of psychology..hopefully my sms din go to waste and last night those explanation really serve some purpose...Went with god mum for lunch..After that i kinda understand how the 7th month come about ..it was a monk who get the Bodhisattva attainment and see his mother is become a ghost(hungry) so after achieving the Bodhisattva attainment he is able to give food to his mother..so after he give the food to the mother...his mother very selfish keep all the food to herself so the food in the end become charcoal and destroy soul of her mother.So the person witness again and again the cycles of his mother die again and again..So the Buddha tell him his boundary of help to help those ghost are limited.So after that he went to tell his the rest of discipline to give offerings to the ghost..That is how 7th month come about..in my God mum religion perspective very different from the version i heard.

以为已经忘了看了你的Facebook不知不觉又想起了你..怎么办阿..不时已经造就把你抛在脑后了吗..好伤好伤人..自己不停的帮人打起加油。。然而自己呢？还真是可笑

19 Aug

2009-08-20T11:21:00.001+08:00

19 Aug

17 Aug & 18 Aug

2009-08-18T19:49:00.004+08:00

18 Aug

Today slackkkk larhs! Do finish public quiz ler...Hmm lets do a review..

No more Public Speaking
No more Psychology Foundation
No more Academic Writing
No more Computer System Application

=DD

Muhahahs! Left with statistic exam only. Ah jon jia you jia you! =DD

因为有不知不觉地想起你。。。相遇也许是个误会。。已经试者帮你给忘记了。。真的我很努力。。有时还会不知觉想也许还会收到你的简讯。。也许就是这样不切实际的想法才没有让我忘了你。。天使。。天使有缘人在哪？

17 Aug

Yesterday was hell damn of a time..went to sch in the morning for statistic..than all the way stay in school until 5pm or acad writing damn it larhs still cant finish..lunch=starfruit,pear,banna cake and tuna sandwhich..but well pretty find i was in the consultation room larhs the Gems people seriously make me cant stop laughing sia =X ...so pissed off when coming up cause i still cant finish and 6 hours left!!!..come home and see the fcking faces..so irritated keep show me attitude for wad sia..u think u screwed? i also screwed. Not everyone having rainbow days what seriously -.- 11.20pm finally finish and finish vetting and screwing the whole thing up...Then i go eat dinner and play DS Lite =x hees the new downloaded game quite nice worh =x

15 Aug

2009-08-16T00:40:00.001+08:00

15 Aug

Nothing much hmm no highlights of the day also lei.. AH! ONLY REMEMBER MY BRAISED DRUM DUCK STICK FOR DINNER! Today is ah ma de death annivesary so at night went to whampoa to have dinner..hmm den before that also went to the Yishun Temple to cross the bridge..today laze in bed until 2pm..even though in between got ppl disturb and woke me up . HPMH! MIII MII DON DISTURB I WAN ORH ORH LARH~! LOL

14 Aug

2009-08-14T23:16:00.005+08:00

14 Aug

Tired Tired Tired.

Today wear the SL Shirt =p! Ee yer New SHIRT LO!

FREAK I SIMPLY LIKE THE LOGO!

The color damn nice =ppp WEET WEET!

Today morning go there saw Diane den we start to help each other with Psy by being each other campanion and testing each other =D YAY Thank god and god grace the test was manageable i know my MCQ got one wrong laios but the rest still not a big problem. Thanks Mr Francis for helping me to get warm water =)) before the exam. After exam we took class photo before exam also pay Kimchi $3 for her to get Khy something =D .Hees after that went Aaron to SAA to settle his shirt and the meeting stuffs =pp !

After that talk to sis on phone while settling his shirt the log stuffs. Sis arh jia you jia you give yourself and 幸福一次机会...

Perhaps attraction theory is true..male only seek for his mate that are youthful and good looking...male perhaps are just visual creatures...maybe what i like is very superficial i only like ur looks! LOL! I dont even really like you..Jon become so superficial ....好浮浅..where is my sophisticated self who look for uqineness.Ya ..its enough for u climbing over my head..enough of pleasing u i am tired.You may be a player in this field toying me around.But i am stubborn once i arrive i at a decision i will stick to the end and never regret. I definitely wont regret cause I definitely deserve someone better than you .I have eyes i have heart.You are a lesson god deliver to me never be fooled by the appearance.

There is something is nothing can mend a broken heart..maybe with more of ur deception tales and my self deception but i wont allow such thing to go on anyway.You may be a player. You may be experinced. I dont like being insulted so lowly like that i am super egostical.Enough.Everything will end here.Nothing just waiver my decision non of it..even you change your mind and say u love like me..nah..aint falling for ur trick.

Halo Effect? Ya my attribution my fault. No one else to blame but just my perception.I always take the blame and dont blame others. Cause i believe this way its fairer perhaps is being influence by Mdm Rohayati.

13 Aug

2009-08-13T23:58:00.003+08:00

13 Aug

HEart proclaim dead at 11.33pm. Thanks bro. "Replied" this is the best reply my bro can ever give which make me realise and wake up. Determined. I work hard.I strive hard. I wont cry. I wont disturb nor interfere your life anymore. I woke up already xie xie ni bro. Thanks caicai for the encouargement .

Tommorrow still got exam.With you gone i now embrace my exam with open arms at 2pm tml ! LOL!

With past few days de ninjia turtle assult porridge dream and also the japan vending machine capsule..wonder what other dreams will i have..

11Aug

2009-08-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

11Aug

Lets see arh today class nothing much just poster presentation after that class ended went for one hour of break cause 1pm got public speaking T_T! Just a round up ok..-.- I got the most Charismatic Speaker Award Yay Yay Yay =p Swee oh!Hmm den hor during lunch time i was sitting with Sharifah and Cherie -.- End up i din eat much only few mouth cause hor they keep make me laugh until i stomach cramp and boooo those den i have to use tissue to wipe -.- Not really that spicy larh that noodle but i end up sweating like dunno what sia kns!Reaction formation for the win! =x why i still able to laugh when i feel so empty and sad inside..hahas..one explanation.Sigmend Freud Defense's Mechanism;Reaction formation..not that i put on fake front to entertain others..maybe partially larh but still i think is reaction formation or also conditioned that way..Feel as empty as usual recieve the coldness from you..just wait till i conditioned my self to accept the fact you are not meant for me and i am not meant for you..i may feel much better..i tot usually ppl would say time to grow up and see things in a clearer perspective..well saying is always easy but when you are in their shoes ..you will be entangled with complex emotions that you just feel like crying and dont care anymore..=x 好痛好痛 Today tried again to forget you..but i never seems to suceed..

10 Aug

2009-08-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

10Aug

Learn to let go..Thinking hard what is my drive and incentives from liking you..the 'incentives' i think of is making myself hard broken..depress..with mood swing..lost and dont know what to do...wow what incentives you given me for loving you..of course larhs have to admit you told me not to love you also..is my one sided afterall..so i deserve it?

I been thinking lately how good if i got a hammer readily for me to retrieve and i will just bash into those idoits who got me so irritated.They seems to be everywhere maybe is i neurotic larh maybe is i low in agreeableness thats why i see everything also buay song but the fact is they indeed make me very frustrated lo.

Today dinner not bad..got roasted duck and roasted meat muhahah cause went to buy during afternoon from chong pang..1 roasted duck and 1 or 1/2 kg of roasted meat.

Aug 9

2009-08-09T23:14:00.003+08:00

Aug 9

Its National Day..well its been pretty long since i last blog..4 days ago ..hmm..yesterday went over to stay over at mama place...was awaken around 6.30am by her voice..she was scolding the maid chasing her home..yesterday around 1am den sleep cause web camming wif korkor..korkor forget that i going to his place to overnight lo..tsktsktsk.....her Alzhemier in my perspective not that bad..just that got halluacination and delusions that all ...den get a bit of aggressive towards the maid but to me.She still quite nice marh. Keep ask me eat and etc still tell me i wan bathe that time say help me look after things so that the maid wont steal my things..I realise i got more patient communicating with her rather than be in school settling club matters..i guess my grandmother deserve my concern and more patience..reason being she is old already.some more she is sick.The rest of the people i dealing with in club matters dont need to be so nice since all of them are so healthy esp the problem maker..lalala..after that 12 plus left and came home..went to da bao for mum they all waited freaking long for the braised duck rice..damn it honestly this damn bloody aunty crooked pop out teeth stAND behind me den keep so close fk off seriously i am feeling damn hot and when u cough and sneeze pls turn away or cover can so irriated larh! Ok looks wise i am in no position to condemn but bloody hell mind ur basic courtesy and manners!..and after that went home to bathe again cause of the bloody aunty and i am sweating standing in the hawker center ....as usual i become zhu sleeeeepppp all the way to 7 plus..After that went to bedok to makan after dad keep one of the buffet..den hor today is National Day..so i did some reflection..i was a bit honestly irritated by the radio stations for non-stop playing National Day related songs..seriously and this year de songs totally not nice in my opinion...den i see a bunch of red shirt ppl outside the sheng siong super market fliming with media crop camera and take national flags in front of a television scream with few person to rouse the crowd..honestly a bit retard group of ppl ...once again in my opinion..Sense of identity? I guess i lose it after i gruadate from my Secondary school...i no longer feel anything for National Day it jus another day of my weekend..nothing new..with totally people who irriates me with their not rationalized action.

I dont understand how to know you better when you tried to conceal your self. I dont understand how to make you happy when you say i always make you angry..I dont understand why dont you see my efforts in trying to know you more..=x i am tried..Open your door..let me in..is it so difficult?

Aug 5

2009-08-05T09:51:00.002+08:00

Aug 5

Last night 3 plus am than sleep cause busy attempting online quiz...Body is failing me...Body is aching like crazy..phelgm is poliferating in my throat..nose is constantly block..i feel weak after eating medicine...I feel weaker today morning after when i attempted a conversation with... and i got "can dont talk to me..."...I was stun..i was caught so suprise..as if tears gonna just burst out any moment..i think too much alr..i think you needed me..but the fact is i needed you more..rofls..

2 Aug

2009-08-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

2 Aug

Didnt have a proper sleep last night thanks the freaking phelgm keep blocking my passageway so time to time i have to go toilet to clear and den my back kinda aching..tired..cant didnt sleep well in the morning force to see doc by mum -.- ...Den doctor give 2 day mc..well most probably tml goin to sch..cause arhs tml got the wellness meeting at 7.30pm..sweat..

28 July 27 July 26 July

2009-07-28T22:15:00.003+08:00

28July
I gave up..early in the morning i try to talk things out with him..it seems kinda ok-ok..破镜重圆难免有一点的瑕疵...i just cannot help it..I just start to feel that i feel so cheap..lols..people already state their views so clearly and why am i still so like pestering..? I failed to answer this questions..today manage to finish 7/9 of the poster left the referencing ,consultation,decorating..=x sweat exam is simply not long away

27July
Life seems good..honestly pretty empty..tried to so call make my self occupied with lots of work ..Woots.!Displacement ...Defense mechanism in my personality is working..i start to make my self work so hard and tired so i wont think of it..Finally glad that i am able to get over it..with temptations to salvage the condition but its seems to no avail...

26July
In the afternoon went to uncle house so that later in the evening can go to East coast together with uncle kelvin..Well once again i am so dying to sing yea. WEE KBOX SYSTEM ON!LETS GO CHERYL Muhahah.! 100% Dominated Mike.Today uncle kelvin treat at Long Beach weee great food for dinner after that drove uncle kelvin they all home..Everytime when i see the seaside..it just gives me different feeling..today the feeling just make me feel like i am so small..and loneliness just embraced me..its saffocating..I triggered the wrong word..poof ..its gone..its quite interesting to see how weak relationship between people is..Well after that went home with tons of newspaper but the article failed to be found.Dumbfolded..Ahs! I guess my defense mechanism is working..lets see which..reaction formation..and repression...

25 july

2009-07-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

25 July
Dad drove me to TP for the Psychology Info Session..sweat..when i reach there den slack for awhile den start working already..playing with the thermometer gun..seriously not accurate luhz =.= How can some one temperature be like 34? Worst there are temperature of 32..seriously got problem..not working properly..Well after that shared my experince with them..Den 收工. Lucky got Mr fancis. Phew I was thinking this time shit..Really Big time.! After info session need to walk all the walk to Tampinese Mall ..Phew so ya lets see..from temasek poly..drive to sembawang park there to see Mr Francis new house..totally amazed..it was a 4 level terrace..wahs some more got like jaccuzi and elvator can..den i spotted something! THE OVEN! hohohox! I tell him next time i wan bake things i go his house. Den he say ya ok..den i tell him..eh but then arh a bit stupid..i cycle with like bags of flour and sugar and egg..den he say me tupid can leave at his place..true larh -.- 气死我..!! After that went to yishun there to have brunch actually wan go chong pang eat one but den arhs too bad luhz the carpark too pack so i navigate him to else where nearby where got decent food. After makan went ntuc buy newspaper lers den went home lo ..hohohox wee...Thanks for the treat and ride home mr francsi =p ...In the afternoon lets see..i am sleeping snooze snooze den wake up see wad shit i haven ddo..realise got a lot larhs but went home dinner at chong pang den came home to try to do..tsk tsk tsk..what a long day sia..
Story of Id,Ego,Super Ego
Id told ego," Aint sex most important thing the owner needs now?" Flared up, Ego screamt " Seriously i will do my best to not let owner just get con thanks to you. ARGH I CANT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE! I go find my korkor to settle u ." Here comes super ego. With a bright blue aura of righteous spirit he step to the front and confronted him," Dont u know homosexual sex is ban in Singapore." Id says," Non of my business..my basic drive is feed and sex. Like duh?" Super ego start his preaching, " According to law Section 377A Penal Code, deems sex between men are considered a crime." Id ,pissed off,walked away with habouring the evil attention to let his owner have his pleasure.

24 July

2009-07-25T00:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY PRE-Birthday Doggie!
Today maybe pretty tiring in school having the grading consultation and go through statistic..But life is good really treating me good..Today i got the mahjong game for linjia so i played in the bus...and i was like laughing away and ppl give me the glace that they are like so freaking determine to send me to IMH like that -.- tsk tsk tsk seriously..after got home was around 4 plus due to some delay in school.
So ya i was busy playing mahjong until Peter come mssg me T_T Tell me that he reach alr.. that one stupid fish kuku one i tell him before wan reach tell me so i can walk there..seriously..brainless..reach alr tell me can..den i have to rush there. Den say "Then walk fast but be worry for u cos miao often walk fast den fall into long gou...." 气!!! RAWRS START CURSING ME. qian da stupid fish.Den after i meet him we went tour to some specific points such as mini toons and the dunno Action city den all the stuffs yea . So we decided to buy a Rubix like cube for him ..den after that this rubix cube when u turn you can see the room temperature, turn again u see the time,turn again u see the clock, turn again u see the alarm..wanted buy soft toy dog for him but seriously thanks to kelvin who say wan buy practical stuffs for him -.- i have to think and think yea..finally manage to see something like this.. Sweat =p! We decided than we brought wrapping paper and 5 mini greeting cards so each of us can write.. i got hard time arh tellin doggie eh dun come so early relx relx. LOL! So that make sure our plot dont get destroy..We plan to like after dinner give him a card den we wanted to create the impression " We the 5 ppl just buy this small small card for u for BIRTHDAY PRESENT" LOL! Den after that we headed for time zone play like crazy after that we gave him the real present =p .! Hees.! Kelvin their reaction and stuffs a bit slow..seriously..0.o a bit no suprise laios larhs.!
After that we went value dollar shop buy drink..den i see fish and kangaroo off to 161 after their bus arrive i go send hamster ,fred and doggie home thru mrt =p hee hee hees. Den i walked home.Come to realise..Some of the things are kinda upsetting me..but i just cut the pretence and i know this shouldnt weight me down..i am so damn blood tired..but i am really really happy because of my animal clique.
x3 Doggie,Fish,Hamster,Kangaroo,Cow =D

Story of Id and Ego.
One day the Id and Ego have conflict again. This time round thier conflict is the decide to let his owner go to another same gender friend house to overnight. Id say "Owner should go..dont hesistate. You will enjoy lots of sexual pleasure and you know it" ..on the other hand..Ego said " No..sex is illegal at the age. This is not the correct thing to do.! "You cant alright owner!",Ego insisted. Ego flared up and went to seek SuperEgo and told him what happen..."Super Ego reminded the owner of the social norms in seeks to remind him what is wrong while ego try his best to delay the gratification of Id's urge.
The owner got slight irriated as both Id and Ego cannot resolve the conflict..but something sloved the conflict..But what..?

22 July

2009-07-22T08:07:00.003+08:00

22July

Today is the day where they say we have solar eclipse but honestly..in Singapore u cannot see much a thing and some how i think its destined ...i woke up in the mist of noise here and there..gosh..esp TODAY! Not because of solar eclipse larhs its more of having the windows shut and etc as it was raining...den today i also dunno why mimi wake up and make a fuss about sis..dunno what gardening den what sleep early..-.- Oh god! Early morning lei. Den as usual luh dii start flaring up..tsk tsk tsk ..so like any other typical day but at least its not the morning larh..kaos...Well but still my mood is postive bright and happy..ready to take on any challenge hees..
Later in the afternoon...just like the normal distribution curve..it fluctuated fast and steady..i guess its just the straight regression line u ever find...i just suddenly feel so tired and burned out..why..I just feel like destorying anything around me..so tired .. not really willing to pay attention to what is really exactly happening around me to be honest..lecture end 30 mins ealier..asked dad to pick me up and i headed straight home..

18 July

2009-07-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

18 July

Since that day..My mood aint nice..after the consultation room ..Belongings thrown out..never felt happy about it..especially after scolding some more when my things are being thrown out..and during the committe meeting...well..today was hell lots of laughter during make up lecutre and today also dont have public speaking graded consultation..today have statistic test..after the make up lecuture me and nic went to chiong dream weaver project.After that Zul bring me to take bus and send to be compass point to meet kangaroo,fish,and cow..hees..finally..i met them..had dinner that we went TIMEZONE we go play the car driving..I realise ar there is a small kid 9 year old the most maybe? He play de is manual gear lei...walalo so zai sia..i realise its been pretty long since i have so much fun in arcade..Its been at least 8 years since den i step in timezone i guess..i cant even vividly remember what games i played..Today was really very fun..enjoying..thanks alot animals..

14 July

2009-07-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

14 July

Just when i thought everything should be at least back in place now..A bit quite wrong..ever since morning when the sole of my shoe die on me.Damn it. the sole of the sole just flipped out...NOOOOOO!!! I got PRESENTATION OK! PRESENTATION! CANNOT LIKE THAT! Sweat..s0 i decided i shall snip both side of the soles off..den i went buy breakfast..Seriously why is my group members always late for meeting at least 25mins la. Just when the first one manage to arrive . -.- Sweat...Today presentation Shan not here so we attempted to salavage her part..did out best..i ruin my presentation larhs.."Inattentional blindless theory" i go put in my slide "Intentional blindness" got shot during presentation..Holy..

Someone told me..i wont say who..." Jon dont you think your organizational skills got problem? Why everytime group project u always solo one?I got alot of friends from FOC and TPRawks also feedback say you are overbearing,Perfectionist and hard to work with...When you say people you dont give other ppl space.."

-Doing Soul Searching in Process-

After that have a so class mini class meeting..where dicussion about the position and etc..Well as usual the day jus end after that..so tired..lols..

11 July

2009-07-11T15:33:00.001+08:00

Guess its the time to let go. Even though it hurts. I gotta to. To prevent either us being hurt.This is the last and best choice i shall resort to.I cant imagine you have hurt me so that..i guess its just Sagittarius distinct traits to only fire more aggressive back in respond to cover for his sadness .But still i really wish that you will be one of my good friend that will see me through..I told my self umpteen times to wake up..but i just cant stop myself from falling into this fantasy you gave. Finally remove your contacts off my desktop...hope this will only start another friendship but not end one.Let this be last time saying ,"I need you so much.I love you so much. I just cant take my eyes of you.The love i have for you cannot be describe with just mere words."

8 July

2009-07-09T09:15:00.003+08:00

Should i be thankful for the past few days there is no school and it some it sorta of keep me in a lala land mode for this kind of relationship issue to happen? Where i know new people and things kinda goes well with what i wish n so on..until last night? Or should i start regretting making a dream there seems pretty far fetched and impossible ?Honestly not really that late to say regret.I just dont quite understand how a person ..can give sex to anyone except anal..on top of that cant remember any of the ex face....Indeed its much pretty wasted ..Perhaps i should be thankful i havent got to much complication with that person..but still the feel is of similar stepping on quicksand..i sink fast..to the extend i lost myself...Lesson learnt? Never be so dumb? Never be so devoted at the inital stage?I would never see anyone out if that person is just abusing the body and do not appreciate the true value of love.Thank god around 12am plus Nichloas nudge and tell me got assignment to submit on friday the group project..serious.. i nearly go crazy but thank god got sample...So after i get the template i did mass changes there...Wee 2am plus finally its done =p

Its good to dream.But its best to know when to wake up.

6 July

2009-07-07T01:49:00.004+08:00

6 July

LOA is on..more infuritating is that it had been delayed until only next monday den i can resume class...At home arh..got a mixture of strange feelings...afraid cannot catch up with Statistic lecture as i missed it and the CSA TEST !_! Qi si wo how can they extend my LOA la..Sighs. Since cant do much i decide in the night start adding people from perfect 10 to my face book ^^.Plato Plato, yesterday at tv also hear this name..in lecutre also hear this name...hmm

5July

2009-07-05T23:42:00.002+08:00

5 July

The theme for today's post is "Lies"

For his outstanding performances.Jon had been issued LOA until wednesday and his class resumed on thursday..A white lie.

Last lie of the day. Let me just tell one more lie, "I dont need you in my life.I never love you from the start"

3rd July

2009-07-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

3rd July

Its friday!!!! But this friday kinda depressing especially after public speaking class Special Occassion Speech...My face went white and i was stunned i am close to break down....I forget everything without my script..omg omg omg...den i request second time..i was kinda glad to even hear my name mentioned at the end that the delivery was good..OMG! PHEW~ SWEAT!Today arhs i am super busy cause its HSSSC AGM. So from the morning i been calling Francis ask him about my 150copies of AY08/09 AGM Minutes. Than also in the middle of the class of statisitc i have to leave for the rehearsal of AGM. Not forgetting after school i have to rush this and that and only in 3pm than have lunch. Lunch not that boring cause i went to have with Ms Chung at Mensa. After that MAD RUSH for AGM already. Make sure this and that printed . Rush go Audi 2 make sure people know their positions and their duties. Then i go spam cream on my hair so i look super GEEK.!Put on the suspender.During the AGM itself is like running campaign making things in order stepping up in ushering.

SAD SIA! My eye candies not there =( haixx.. but if i nt wrong they should be at NAPFA or busy. Hmm anyways.! After AGM me and aaron after grabbing few items that we can bite than we go IR Chiong the AGM minutes. After that Mr Francis me and aaron went to IKEA for dinner . While i was dining i receive some unpleasant news.****.After that i broke the glass omg so malu la when i was refilling water. After dinner went shopping for the high chair. Den after that dad drive me home. Hohoho. Monitor Temperature. T_T

1 July

2009-07-01T11:16:00.002+08:00

Awoke from a nightmare of violence and anger..Am i suppressing them which is why the "day residue" seeps into my dreams? I dreamt of playing mahjong during holidays in a holiday resort...We took a big family photo...After that ...playing with Johnson mum,terence and linda..after that they say cancel game half way den after that Johnson mum come and open her unrevealed tile and say she gamed..den she took $6.40 automatically from my side..Furiously i snatch back my mother and start screaming and pushing her ....with tons of vulgarities..thats how my dream ended..

Today Apel lessons for some reasons i am agitated and infuritated..the reasons are unknown but i am certaint that i got different brain wave wif the person conducting my class..I can strongly sense her sarcasm and she seems to held some grudges against me with her vicious -readily to gorge one into her stomach kind of look. That what my sense tell me..

[Yet to finish]

30 JUNE

2009-07-01T01:44:00.002+08:00

30 June

Bring me the smile you stole away. Love me again when you walked away. Tell me to smile when i tear away. Love me once more for this time again.

27 June

2009-06-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

I am Super Super SUPER HAPPY!

Well today woke up around 1pm with a nightmare about submitting no time to submit my dreamwaver project...well after i wake up den realise and think think..hmm today is saturday..saturday nothing due mahs more over sunday due de maybe is only peer apprisal only ma den maybe quiz? Dreamweaver project jus do where got so fast due one shock me sia =x

Today parents didnt do part time..and it looks more like a family day finally..where in the afternoon we went IMM for lunch around 3 plus like that or 4 reach there den we go eat the Hongkong Cafe baked rice and eat .After that went daiso.. Hmm what i buy today arh...a lime green cushion case for my hard disk and a A5 size case as pencil case =p Of course not now change..wait until pencil case spoil den say..hmm mum also brought me a green tie. ok-ok bahs..well in the mist of shopping i went toilet ..return to found that mum went MIA? So i call dad lo..so we like playing hide and seek waited for around 45mins still cant find..in that mean time i spended around 15 mins waiting outside finalyl i ask dad ownself at entrace there wait i go in Daiso walk walk =p! After that finally found them at Gaint -.- Kinda expected lo..just that dad insist that they won go down de..After that also confirm via sms about business card and etc. After buying things at gaint we went to CCK some where to eat..the food that not bad luh..den da bao popiah home..come back alr soggy alr la -.- den dye hair for them after that mahjong time..while doing my new bought charcoal mask,playing mahjong watching my fav korean drama- liu xing hua yuan(hua yang nan zi) hiak hiak hiak..today is good man..Set aside project..set aside stress eat my fav food so my fav things.. =X Hope every week is like that so that at least there is something i would look forward to.!

26 June

2009-06-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

26 June

Task at hand

~~Minutes of 3rd Meeting Minutes~~
Psychology Quiz
Public Speaking Quiz
~~Rush for Psychology of Magic Slides~~
Journal Entry
Special Occassion Speech
Personal Updates [Newspaper for public speaking]
Peer Apprisal for Acad writing.

24 June

2009-06-25T00:51:00.004+08:00

24 June

Officially Honorary Secretary for HSSSC AY09/10 and Aaron was the new Assistant Honorary Secreatary.

Task at hand

Minutes of 3rd Meeting Minutes
Psychology Quiz
Public Speaking Quiz
Rush for Psychology of Magic Slides
Journal Entry
Special Occassion Speech
Personal Updates [Newspaper for public speaking]
Peer Apprisal for Acad writing.

Meetings and things to attend

Business AGM on this friday,26 June. [Evening]
Meeting CSA group for template built up ,26 June,1pm
Rehearsal on this friday,3.30pm,26 June.
Meeting aaron on friday to go thru minutes writing,after rehearsal,26 June.
Meeting for this upcoming 8 July.

Woooo CRAZY!!! Results updated in next post as i am dead beat T_T

June 22

2009-06-22T08:22:00.003+08:00

June 22

Energy kidna running low in ther morning.! Stupid stupid stupid! Why TP wireless for my lappy still cant go msn =( ...doesnt affect me much larh..i werent dying to find someone to chat or smth..but if cant go msn it means the network don enable me to go Vbus or lms. this is soooo stupid. No monday blue =(...

Finally problem sloved after school after pointing our to Mdm Noriah..Though there are many frustrating events example like during statistic and etc..but i guess ..bad things do come to an end..i am very tried..dunno why listening to 낯선 해 (연주곡) my heart seems to tear readily...readily..

Infuriated because:

some bitches keep talking behind that i cant concentrate during CSa i cant undestand the lesson
they played wif my pencil case even though after i warned them and the pencil case dropped on the floor...after being smashed at the table..
Statistic report left hanging due to report even though i completed the weakness
Psychology Slides not ready.

Secrets: Ψ要怎么冷静？如何理智？因为爱你所以魂不守舍因为心乱如麻。都是你!Ψ

June 21

2009-06-22T08:13:00.003+08:00

June 21

Damn it larhs the previous blog i blogged dunno why is not here..what is blogger doing sia...*QI* anyway yupps todays is fathers day ..didnt have any sumptous meal nor anything..just like any other normal day ... -.- i wan treat also dont let me treat.. sweat well they say tml goin Yishun the restraunt there =p Lai lo lalala treat den treat la i scare ar? Rofls.! Finally i guess my weight lighten a little after the Academic writing T_T ! Well come to think of it...Monday to thursday...SWEAT! Lets see arhs... Monday school end at 5pm. Tuesday school end at 12pm, followed by 3 hours rehearsal of psychology of foundation for magic. Followed by a IITSC AGM. =( on Wednesday is 6pm end school ...7pm got HSSSC meeting. Thursday 12pm end school BUT! Statistic rehearsal is like 2 hrs so ya =( Haixx..there goes my week i guess...

June 15

2009-06-15T23:24:00.007+08:00

Today went out with Animal Family. Today only have moomoo,doggie,kangaroo,fish and me (CAT)! We went east coast park and cycle.! All of them late luh!!! Tsk tsk tsk! Some more still say late wan treat drink. ! Debit on their account arh! LLOLL! Today went out with them feel very relax as if this is the offical start of my holiday.The holiday i reserved.Rent the bike for 10 bucks from 11am to 6pm =p heheh. But we ride until 5.15 like that than return already.Today play mahjong also but lose $10++ Come home completely burn =x

Highlights of the day:

-Thanks to Kelvin shouting "Jon 在前面转弯" My whole bike crashed into the bush =x

-Wash my bag as soap leak out. Found my Nokie E55 in the soap water.

10 June

2009-06-10T22:02:00.003+08:00

10 June
Finally make myself sit down and start writing blog after past few days keep playing mahjong winning for past 3 days and lose the recent 2 days ...i think i lose more than i win larhs...also yesterday was the camp for the committe members had fun of course and HSS only got 6 people -.- pathetic but well still very fun =p! Esp when we get our lanyard aiyoyo so nice ok ahhh soo high -.- LOL! I saw my eye candies =p! >< Ahhs so sweet my eyes getting diabeties alr...Hees =xx I wan hugg them =sss!! ok-ok get realistic that wont happen =x heart just start beat slightly faster..=p Sighs out of those stuff i still feel a bit tired. emo.piss. Senile Grandmother always nonstop complaining and screaming at the maid..and got to the worst stage according to the doctor..she is hallucinating..living in the past..arrgh..-.- Still got the stupid never ending assignment i just hope the members can more chiong a bit...i am a bit tired tryin to do the group project alrhs..a bit irritated they always hard to contact..and also i never seems to get enough rest..What is holiday sia....Hope to see my eye candy more often ..=s ..Sighs.~

30 MAY

2009-05-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

30 May
忙碌的生活里也想忙里偷闲这样一来生活才会有乐趣。。常常希望自己能在偶像剧里不知该会有多好啊不用担心自己的结局是否圆满。。可以安抚按自己不管有多急手的问题也会船到桥自然直。。。就像下雨后自然会有彩虹。。不必理会生活里的大小事而是尽情地享乐。。该会有多好。。还是清醒点吧子凯。。有些事情该来的还是会来的。。过于强求之会弄巧成拙。。

27 may

2009-05-27T14:35:00.004+08:00

25 May

2009-05-25T18:20:00.003+08:00

25 May

苦不堪言。。疲惫不堪。。还真有心无力。。心里的苦还能向谁诉呢？束手无策的我先在觉得自我封闭，不去理会旁人才会有帮助。。这样的选择是对或错呢？我不晓得。。
Less than 2 months in Poly= 7 chapters for foundation of psychology for MID SEM

-Neuroscience
-Variation of consciousness
-Learning
-Memory
-Language and cognition
-Psychological disorders
-Treatment of Psychological disorders

20 MCQ[1 mark ea] with 3 Essay Question[10 marks ea]

COmputer Ssytem Application[7 chapter]10 MCQ[1 mark ea] with [40 marks worth structure essay]

Statistic [5] Chapter

lol?Not dead is what?

22 May 23 May

2009-05-24T14:42:00.002+08:00

23 May
Did nothing much by slacking at home finally wait till night when to chong pang there and eat. Bought mac upsize to get that blue glass . HEEs =p!

Prince dont come in white horse neither do pricess come in glass shoes.

22 May
Manage to complete and submit magic individual project.Got a call from fufu..telling me i got in HSs-Sc main com thru the election =p yay. lols after sch went to eat at whampoa hawker center with uncle kelvin treat us with make ee,ah bee and linda and family.After dinner when hope and rest.

Its how pathetic things get.There is always a price to pay for everything.

20 May

2009-05-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

20 May

My life seems to never seperated from stress...i am dead beat..whats life without stress? LOL? Except this time is over whelming..stress sneaked his attack on me..I got 80% of the blow..more than half dead.

17 May

2009-05-18T02:31:00.002+08:00

17 May

Life seems to revolve around sleeping =x
I love sleeping and start tossing around ..Drilling here drilling there..
Cook at night for dinner around 11 plus.Look forward to tml breakfast with Nutella spread yay! Choc Choc lalalala!!~
Look forward tml to school with white specs =p !!
- 100% 宅男

16 may

2009-05-17T00:44:00.003+08:00

16 May

Every day is happy day.Today is happy happy day.Bought a lot of things. Pants. Lappy Slip Case. White Belt with badge .White frammed specs.Preserved fruits =p. Went to marsailing in the afternoonn with mum ,sis,cousin,aunty and den to sembawang shopping centre =p!

11 may

2009-05-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

11 May

Go to school today pretty early..start rushing to toilet..wonder what the hell wrong i ate yesterday..must be the mixed vegetable rice..Well today i watch 换换爱 quite nice..episode 1..today have so many lecture..really very dry..falling asleep..learn new things like linear regression during statistic..well..I start to know why i like taiwan idol drama/anime..its the teen version of fables i guess..it gives me hope..gives me the laughs i am missing out during my present days..it still let me to continue to believe in real love at least....make me still believe there are cinderella ..believe my destined one is waiting for me..at least when i am down..its some sort of motivation..Today lunch francis treat at ITAS. I ate the lagasana..totally below standard..lols. Well happy happy day.. =(

10 May

2009-05-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

10 May

Stressed Up. Why? Below will be the reasons accountable for it:

1.Stupid sister so slack in her work dont even wanna to use her brain to think and try to slove.No motivation to study i have to commit my free time to teach her ..no time to relax at all..

2.I have to do all my tutorials, Public Speaking,Foundation Psychology,Computer System Application

3.The research for academic writing on Media violence.

3.Have to stay back late esp next week after 6pm for the contesting HSS -Studies club thing.

4.Need to stay back late for DPAIG also. Also need to check out my Ez Link Card.

5.Need catch up with my CSA lecutre/tutorial. Cause i dun really pay much attention to it.

6.No time for rest,entertainment.

Yesterday cook spaghetti for dinner . So i decide to make custard today for Mother's Day. I didnt specifically tell her i did for her just wanna do and wan to let her have it . Though usually we will also split among ourself.Sweat no time for leisure except when eating dinner watch episdoe 11 Zhong ji san guo..Too bad tml still got school..Sighs.

9 May

2009-05-09T16:45:00.003+08:00

9 May

I never wanna let go. I just hope to be side by side with you. Face the challenges you were to face and help you along. I just hope one day you look at me..acknowledge my existence..hope that day will come before fate summon for me..I am willing to be ur stepping stone..till than i know its time for my for my leave..
x3

Watch finish kekkaishi. I cried.
Watch Zero no tsukaima 2. I cried.

Gosh nowadays everything is go brittle and they just seems to fall apart so easily..it hurts so that that its affecting my every part of life..

8 May

2009-05-08T18:27:00.002+08:00

8 May.

Its Wilson Birthday today. Happy Birthday Wilson. lols.My suprise kinda work i guess telling the class the sing him a bd song on the count of 3. =p BLEHS! Than we joke say ask him treat after we move to next class ler we say he treat seoul garden den he wan zao LOL!

Today super himbo. Went to the wrong class for class..I though we have public speaking first leis..than i went to engine block larh....den michelle and mariane ask me where..den it was 9am plus i see..eh how come no people -.- den i ask mich double check ..omg its statistic first..den have to from engine blk run to IT blk -.- omg..SWEATS! Den when TzeMin going thru hor i realise i din bring my tutorials question...i bring 3rd lecuter de she dont get thru..zzz than she go thru 2..for some reasons tutorial 2 questions is not with me.! After that still meeting keith and tiara for short meeting as design block..After finish food rush to Temasek Green for some Q&A session actually i lazy to go one..but since they all going than under a 'forced' condition i gotta go..seriously waste time on top of that also go brown bag session also wasted time there..I wanted to charge my lappy after that but there is no chance for me to cause the 4pm to 6pm thing got the library brefiting going on..sweats.

7 MAY

2009-05-08T01:55:00.000+08:00

7 MAY

A epidemic infested your living area.You are forced to fled.What are the 3 important things you will take with you.
1st Family
2nd Pillow
3rd Clothes

6 May

2009-05-07T08:44:00.002+08:00

6 May

Today in sch during lunch went with some of 1A03 ppl to TPSU Lounge to relx a little.As usual CSA tutorial is really laughing lesson T_T.CSA excel project totally headache..and more projects to come are the psychology magic project -- ..Sighs..my june 2 weeks holiday gone i think..X-stigma..Excel..Psy magic project..GOD!

Embracing the darkness with my shuddering arms.Tears flowing fast and free.Drifted mind ...everything i think is about you..its hurts me badly.

4 May

2009-05-04T23:14:00.001+08:00

4 May

Dont feel like talking to anyone.

Dont feel like attending any social event.

Dont feel like letting anyone see my current state.

-Dead

Upcoming events:
-Apache Dinner
-Rinku Dinner
-Ele Outing + Dinner

Lols i dunno why i got no mood to attend any of the above..just so like that..today bought the Weiten Psychology Textbook finally. Today marks another tiring day of lecuture all the way from 9,30am to 5pm.. with only 1 hr break..sweat..Today learn about "Learning" Punishment,Reinforcement,Positive,Negative. Today in statistic class learn about standard deviation and also variances arhs..a bit blur blur in the lesson ..
I try to look away.I try to convince you are something too good to exist.It hurts even more as the truth is being uncovered.Hurt..Pain..Kills..The temptation is so strong.But just destined to let you go.

2 May

2009-05-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

2 May

Bid goodbye to my fantasy and get a life.
Sakura on the trees bid goodbye as Spring goes off.
The boy stood there.Waiting.Frowning.
His vision turned red.
He bid goodbye to everything in the world.

Whats going on?Frustrated! I dun wanna be that person waiting on n on. I wanna someone to wait for me..So tiring...what for wait like the sakura tree..It just WITHERED! GET IT?!
Some people may not understand the above short phrases..But people with story..should able to comprehend it more or less..Its more than just stress..its very complicated..maybe its because i choose too..sometimes you write too obvious it simply destory all the purpose.

1 May

2009-05-01T20:13:00.003+08:00

1 May

Suddenly have this temptation and the urge to be in taiwan or japan busy streets in the freezing cold weather..seeing people throng the busy streets...maybe is lack of security..late of cold temperature in the air =s ..eating fav pasta dishes..and pizza..drinking green tea or ice milk tea..

30 May

2009-05-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

30 May

Today lessons start from 9am to 6pm with 1 hr break in between...sweat..lucky yesterday i buy milk pocky and villina hello panda..den i eat during psy lecture..Mr Francis was the lecuturer today..today he went thru about dreams..mediation..hypnosis..and also the sub conscious mind..den about sleep..about REM[Rolling eyes movement] and also Non-REM dreams..so dreams got 5 cycles..the 5th cycle is known as REM lo..intersting la but also got sometihng to do with brain..Today lesson very funny la..make me keep laugh esp the hypnosis...den ..first class is tutorial public speaking den we suppose to mite in the end we put up a skit instead..so funny can...den hor they use their cardigan and the scarft make me look their mother as we go thru the 12 steps of presenting and preparing a speech from the topic to the presentation..LOL! After that follow by psy tut..den i kinda offically declared as Class Rep.AFter that 1hr lunch..due to some delay here and there..most of them went design. RAWRS Wilson go tell whole class i wan whole class eat together T_T den all come to ask jon engine ar jon engine ar.!~ RAWRS I WAN DESIGN WESTERN FOOD LARH =( more over i meet audrey and tricia ler ma =s next time bah...den after that ya we actually queue for Western food but too long..i tell mich i go Q malay store..if reach de den come over cause we got not much time left to spare yea..After that we eat alr we went for psy lecutre..phew just in time man.~ After that is statisitc tutorial so funny larhs we keep laugh n laugh seriously =s!

LOL got a internal joke ," 我的子民”